February: Reflective Birthday/A Deep Love : But God

It's February and when this month comes around, all I'm thinking about is my birthday on the 19th. But everyone else is focused on Valentines Day. What a day huh??? Well, normally around my birthday I get really reflective. I look back over my life and the past year. I think about the goals I accomplished or the time needed to meet my next goal. But this year, I'm thinking about love, love and more love. I'm currently single....but i don't want to be and I'm not looking for anyone. I have my "one" in mind, in fact that "one" use to be mine. But relationships have their ups and downs, and there have been alot of downs. I thought that I was ready to move forward and attempt to look for love. But deep down inside, I'm not ready to look at another man, or speak of another mans name. My friends say girl, your beautiful, smart, funny, loving, sassy, and etc, you will find someone....But what if I found someone, or atleast had someone. In my reality, I know who my heart belongs to.... so instead of continuing to complain, I started started to pray. God will fulfill all of our needs. He wants us to come to him. God wants to bless us an bring peace and comfort into our lives. But he not only gives us what we need, but he gives us what we desire too. When you seek God, all things will be added to you. It doesn't make sense, that  I allow myself to back track at times. I know the word of God, but why do I delay to apply it to my life. The people of God do this all the time. We never handle our so called issues by attacking it with the word of God. We always wait til the brink and then apply it. God doesn't want any "sometimey" Christians. he wants us to come to him and read and apply his word on a daily, hourly and minute basis. Everyday, I continue to learn, hope you are too...so now I'm seeking God and I know that real soon, I will have all that  need and desire. That's how good God is...